I won’t lie to you: I don’t lie.

I sometimes get gel placed on my nails.

I also wear lash extensions.

At times, I like to wear fake shiny gold.

Ironically, I don’t like “fake”.

I should specify: I don’t associate it with untruthful values.

I connect with honesty, genuine behaviors and true individuals.

 

I recognize that along my journey, often enough: I felt uncertain about my reality and about what would unfold.

Plus; I wasn’t always sure about the required passage to move forward, neither. 

Frequently, I even wondered if I could pull through.

But I  adopted a certain ease. 

Chin up Alexa. Open your heart mama.

Something will change.

I pretended to know.

I also began juggling positive beliefs and became more aware of my inner space, my “in-box”.

I didn’t know that I was building positive resilience, love and contentment.

I knew that my energies were critical and immensely low and I recognized it was best for me to cultivate only positive thinking, kindness and love.

This was no instant recipe. It was often uncomfortable.

I doubted, I ignored my doubts and insecurities.

Often; I  felt like was a complete hypocrite.

How could I spend time eating and drinking with friends; when my world was crumbling apart?

I remember feeling terrified and powerless.

Hence, I recall reassuring myself: Alex –this feels nice so let’s stay here.

I also watched speakers share about love and consciousness. I prayed, wrote and read.

 

Like a distinctive and particular reoccurring nightmare, some of my life sagas lasted way longer than an regular sleep time.

I chose to get up, survive, to be productive and create another reality.

Sometimes my resilient attitude was inspired by my Ego: “I got to look strong, I have to show that I can succeed.”

Other times, my motivation came from true self love: a desire for peace and resilience.

I faked it — until I learned it.

I forged it — and it changed.

 

I remember questioning this tactic, observing my uneasiness with doubt and trouble.

Pretending can be exhausting and I started to reflect on the principle.

Ever since my life begun; I had to first believe in an unknown reality to transform it into a fact.

This theory had taught me how to walk, how to talk and even how to evolve.

There was some doubt.  Although ultimately; it worked.

Meta physics, spirituality, law of attraction: whatever world rule was being practiced -TRUST- it paid off.

 

Cultivating negative emotions for too long; will keep you locked in dark chambers.

Please harvest other energies, promote positive feelings in your daily life. They will multiply.

Meanwhile… # fakeituntilyoumakeit.