We tend to remember our first kiss and our first car.  Most first times are a big memory lock. 

I remember my first basement apartment and my first real job. 

I also feel the vigorous heavyweight of deceptions and losses when I think of my first heartbreak days.

Positive or negative experiences: most introductions are perceptive. Wanting to try or experience something for the first time is quite common. Then, gratefulness resides.

Gratitude is an important key to my daily inner balance: mandatory to my perspectives and to my everyday flow. It helps me appreciate and focus on today’s blessings. What I enjoy. My health, my peace, etc.

This said, I desire more.

Quite more. I want to achieve exact goals. I also wish to acquire material items as well.

Often, I struggle with these desires.

First.

I know that I’m blessed. I got some good elements here!

Second. 

I’m also aware that these wins were not only my triumphs; not just of my doing.

I spent hours praying; and even more minutes in silence making room for love and my wishes to bloom. I remember the days where I vividly prayed for the realities and things that I enjoy now.

It took much work — in my “In-box”— and out of it.   I invested many efforts,  physical time, physical efforts; I compromised, I persevered when it got rough and I really — went for it.

Plus got lots of Universe assistance.

Third.

I acknowledge the recurring thought:

-“Wait. So you got the firsts; some people don’t even have that. Now,  you want more?

Right… I do. Looking ahead; I care to enjoy specific material pleasures, I wish to experience different blessings and I strive to impact my surroundings. 

Another thought glides through: “How can you ask for more? You greedy.”

Am I?

Our very existence is a gift, I know.

For quite some time after the crash: minutes and days passed while I remained unconscious. My life and my awareness were threatened. 

I’ve come a long way. Plus, my son is cancer free.  My heart envisions a better version, not just for me; for all of us.

I  desire love, peace, awareness and material comforts for others: blessings are not limited. If I get to travel, it doesn’t stop anyone else from traveling. There is an infinite amount of love and opportunities out there.

I have a generous heart. I want to give more. Opportunities, money, love, etc.

It’s a little selfish—– For me, giving is an amazing feeling.

No perfection over here.

I learned that compromises and sacrifices are part of most updated dreams.

But, when I look at my rearview mirror: what I wished for — ultimately did materialize. That’s the key! Not all my dreams, not exactly how I had envisioned it — but it did!

Life is so busy. Sometimes, we barely notice when we walk through the doors we once prayed would open.

#If we’ve paved our way there, we can pave the next path too. 

At times: I get distracted in the hustle. I feel impatient and dissatisfied. On particularly rough days: I sometimes question if the Universe forgot about me.

-”Hey! Up there – please! Did my ticket get lost?” 

The inner struggle: I got to finesse.

Genuinely though: my awareness is fully grateful and thrilled. 

It’s possible to manifest, to make our ideas come true.

I’m no magician, yet I did it. We all can.

As I type these last words, I intend on pulling back quietly in my bedroom afterwards. 

I’ll pray for tomorrow’s blessings: a few Alexa specifics, global peace and Earth’s wellness.

You got the key, unlock the desired door.