“Your outlook on life is a direct reflection of how much you like yourself.”

I get it.

If the glass you are looking through is tainted and cracked: the views you will observe will be similar.
Logical.
Until you adjust the lenses, this perspective will remain.

Many things have changed since I survived the crash.
Life changes every day and every year.
I’ve always been a confident individual. Even in a wheelchair and barely standing, I knew I self  value.

Everyone does.
Looking back at it: it was a bogus confidence: it was based on wobbly grounds.
Still, it helped me focus on my abilities and to believe in myself.
I now call it fake because I know that real confidence is based on authentic self-love, awareness and gratitude.
The accident shattered every self identity I had built and loved. These were mainly deceptive and illusory: based on titles or rooted on delusive values.

I used to see the world as dark and deranged. My perspectives would mostly observe life as difficult, heavy and complicated.
During the months I spent hospitalized and through my two year rehabilitation program: I was mostly grieving, confused and hurt.
I didn’t recognize myself. Everyday I faced disabilities and major adaptations.
Life had pinned me down with a new physical reality: limitations and pains.

Plus,  this hospital life was depressing. Three months of it made me completely bitter.
When I finally returned to my own space, I was motivated but struggling, reading and praying: I grew a whole lot.

I spent days reading about spirituality, self awareness, philosophy and love.
Over several years, I learned to surrender and I began to understand life differently.
I became conscious of life’s rhythm and my needed balance.
Even nowadays, this balance requires daily care and maintenance.

So here it goes.

I recognize that my vision of our world and of myself have greatly evolved.
I believe that I’m a positive person. I do good. I like myself. I believe that the woman I am today is very aware of the world’s energy and is committed to her peace.
I love our world.
It’s beautiful, it’s kind, it’s always giving and it’s also very grand.
That’s what I choose to see.
No no.
I’m not full on crazy.
Of course, I could also disclose my ego’s maniac thoughts and my impulsive pulses, the Earth’s darkness and its cold realities.
They exist.

No lie.
That’s not the main picture.

I strive to be better. I hope the world improves as well.
Thus, my views are mostly positives.
I wish I knew exactly how my perspective changed its focus.
I ignore what exactly tweaked the lens but it’s safe to say that my quest contributed.
My learnings, my daily attentions and my prayers magnified self love and my universal love.

I say now:
My outlook on life is a direct reflection of how much I like myself.